Boring, but Good

I haven't been writing lately because Jake has been pretty good.  He's still holding on to his control but it's not as bad.  He's decided that it's worth it to behave so he can work toward earning privileges.  This is a huge step, most kids take a year to get to this point when they feel good enough about themselves to be able to reach to have good things in their life.

Faith

This week was really rough.  I was so super sick with some kind of cold that ached my body and mind.  I felt so alone and totally victimized.  I was alone trying to feel well enough to take care of 3 kids under 6 as well as my 8 year-old RADish.  He was okay, but also raging at times.  Jake was being his normal control freak, and wasn't letting me have an inch.  Mercy isn't in his vocab yet.

The Spiral of Guilt

We had two fabulous days Sunday and Monday when Jake came home from respite care.  He was compliant, happy, cheerful, trusting, and fun to be around.  His mind was clear and he was having a great time.  Tuesday he decided to get out of his room early to "go to the bathroom" which led to waking his 6 year old sister up and playing (worst rule to break in the house).  Playing with L is the worst thing he can do because he has not been good to L and it makes her feel unsafe.

Miracles do Happen!!

Today was one day's worth of what we are working so hard for!  After Jake broke his window we had to take emergency actions.  His room was completely unsafe and so was he.  We took him to another family who has a RAD child as well, and the mother is well versed in the proper care of these kids.  She was recommended by our therapist and was so great.