Finding Purpose

Today I am trying a new approach.  I'm trying to see where the good is among all the junk that Jake's early trauma causes.
It's easy to see all the terrible things that this has brought to my family.  It's easy to count the money we have spent to try to help him.  It's easy to feel the stress and despair that comes.  It's harder to see the good that can come but here I go...

REPENT!!

It's amazing how Jake's journey parallels mine.  I have been trying to bring him down in the midst of this storm called elementary school.  I keep telling him to calm down and relax.  I want him to keep his faith strong and his fear at bay.  He knows that scripture reading and prayer bring the spirit, but he doesn't want to do it.  When he does he is so much better and way more calm.

The big question... Why can't I practice what I preach???

Hello Again

I realize that I have not written in 2 months.  It's amazing how I have learned that too much RAD can really wear on a person.

I mean REALLY wear on a person.

I have had a roller coaster of a summer.  It was SOO good in June and half of July.  Jake was AMAZING. I love it when people say, "Just don't expect perfection" they have no idea how good these kids can be if they choose.  Jake was perfect!  He obeyed right away, did everything I said, was loving and caring to his siblings, said sorry, was happy, he was quick to see others needs, empathetic, helpful, and a complete joy.  He was who he is underneath all the crap that he carries around. It was amazing.

Then he couldn't do it anymore.  He caught wind that we would be going back to regular school this year.