The Pot

Wow, it's been a while, but I am still here.  I have realized this week that I have to be able to live in a world where someone is trying to sabotage all of the good in the house.  Our Jake is a constant reminder of the struggles that are here in this life.  He tries hard to be look good on the outside but on the inside he is actively choosing to bend the rules, test his boundaries, and get away with anything he can.  Aren't we all in this state once in a while?  This week it has been harder because the landscape of Jake's condition has changed from a reactionary and addictive disobedience and control, to it now being his choice to act this way.

Scary Love

With Jake it is always an adventure in Crazytown.  I have come to be able to detect what state of mind he is in.  Last week was a little harder, 'till it wasn't.  It was so weird, I would go down to get Jake up for the day and he would be standing right inside the door and scared me like those twins in the hallway in the movie "The Shining." He felt so creepy I jumped every time I saw him.  But he would still be okay with his behavior but just a little of enough for it to not feel right.

Losing My Mind!

I swear, when I was younger and single I used to scoff at those who seem to lack common sense, flake on people, and generally don't seem to know what is going on.  Now that is me!  I get it, it's all lessons I need to learn, because now all I do is make commitments and break them.  Not on purpose, just by lack of brain power.  That is probably why Jake is so successful at outsmarting me most of the time.

Big Comfy Old Sweater

Do any of you have a sweater that always makes you feel good when you put it on?  The kind that you would never wear out in public except on one of "those days."  I have a black wrap sweater that is my favorite.  It is so stretched out and is full of lint and stuff, but when I need it this sweater always does the job.  Others might look at this sweater and not think that it is as fashionable or even worth a penny to have, but I choose this sweater of all my sweaters when I am in need.  I can stretch it tight if I need to feel comfort, I can relax in it and it warms my arms and body nicely.
This is what I reached for tonight when my little boy decided to crash into a bad place tonight.